Our decorating

It appears we have found a vanity that is very cool and Stefan and I are both really pleased with yay! I think we both just like it and it is a tad different and it bears out the quote that I try to remember that it is important to have a style rather than be in style. I am also so so pleased with the colors that are coming together in the bedroom! I just think that color palette is just most refreshing and relaxing to me. Something just says to me yes this is nice and warm. I find I am repelled by the blues in paint colors but somewhat drawn towards the blues in tiling it seems I don't know why. I almost wonder if I like the colors so much in the bedroom if I used to have a bedroom that color or a den that color or something if that is why I find it so soothing or something well I don't know but there is a whole thing with color therapy that I will have to look into.

We are a member of the co-op as of today that is so cool! Stef picked up some organic orange juice which is my choice haha although $4.99 for a can of it is rather pricey ohhhh well it better be amazing ...LOL! I suppose I will just sail through the day with a whole new additude and even spell better.

Oy I just realized I did something ohhh stupid head me! Why the heck oh never mind oh why am I such a noodle head hahah!

Such dreams Saturday night. I slept for a long time but some were fine and some were horrifying to me. Just tailor made horror for Tracey. Couture for Tracey oh how wonderful custom made. I wonder if my body is resting during nightmares or what?

Only four days of work left before my mini vacation and only one on the register so that is nice. Yes very nice indeed!!!!

Why is WIC so hard?

Gosh why is Wic just so darn tricky?? Last week I took in a cheese and let somebody get Pepperjack when they should have gotten cheddar uckyyy! On another voucher somebody got whlole milk when they should have gotten lowfat good grief I don't want to get downgraded to bathroom only cleaner. I mean people probably already think I got fired from the pharmacy and Neil avoids me like the plague when I am on register so I don't want to get kicked off the register as well. I mean on the WIC thing it all seem simple enough when you are going over it and stuff but then when I have a cheese thing I just don't think to look in the book to verify pepper jack cheese although I am sure it would have stated that it is not a covered cheese. I am sure I will have it burned in my memory now though. I also seem to sometimes mess up the buttons when I'm ringing the WIC through I swear I might have done that today!!!! UGGG UGGG UGGGG!

On packing

I will be packing for Montreal next week so I expect to be adding a lot of more fun and interesting information than my last post. I plan on reviewing coffee shops and places to buy artsy jewelry.

Uggg....time slowing down speeding up

Oh I just need to stop it. I fall asleep then I wake up with an anxiety attack and I can't stop it I just keep thinking about times and places of walking like I'm paralyzed time isn't a factor my stinky sweat is all around me and I don't even know I'm yelling and I don't care since I don't know. My heart won't stop pounding I have no sense of my body being attatched to my brain it is as if they are not connected I'm just going through the motions so nobody knows what is on the inside. I'm looking at myself from outside my own body. Keep my legs walking even though my head is dizzy and I don't know what I am going to do with the terror in my brain and heart and I'm alone so alone then and scared oh so scared. I need to stop thinking as this is not helping one bit.

My hope is that writing this down will give me some perspective and let me sleep and calm myself as dizzy detatchment is not what I need. I can end my panic now I can just relax and pet Salem.

Turkey Crazy

After working in a grocery store and ringing up 52,567 frozen and fresh turkeys I have to wonder what the hell is all the ceremony about the stupid turkey. The stupid turkey is 42 cents a pound and people buy platters for it fixings, transport it from states away....think about where to buy it and when to buy it for months prior to the big event The stupid thing is FOURTY TWO CENTS A POUND! The also have to announce over and over again what a good deal this is like it is some sort of secret that a grocery store would put a turkey on sale the two weeks before Thanksgiving...good lord who would have thought of such a novel idea!!! Oh and for those of you that might want to suggest something crazy like eating something other than turkey for Thanksgiving be prepared for looks like you have just commited sins against all of humanity This turkey business is for the birds!!!!

Eating animals

I need to research this as I need Sushi and while I don't see the extreme need to go vegan I feel very guilty seeing those "very young turkeys" coming toward me. I'm sad they never got to grow up and have friends and play and go on trips or anything. I'm very happy that I sell lots of cage free eggs and I hope they are happy chickens. I really really like to wear leather though....I suppose you could wear very old leather though from animals that died natural deaths after long and full and happy lives though. I don't like hunting and I know that people claim they are culling the herd but hunters take the most beautiful from the herd not the sick or the old. People also claim they are at the top of the food chain and need to take animals to feed themselves but why do we decided that we are at the top of the food chain? If you look around us I get the distinct feeling we are so not at the top of the food chain in fact a lot of us humans are a pretty disgusting lot of us....

Just some more animal compassion stuff

While we can’t completely eliminate the suffering we cause, by taking simple steps we can substantially reduce the suffering we are responsible for and even abolish various forms of institutionalized animal abuse. By becoming vegan, in particular, we can dramatically minimize the amount of suffering we cause each day. Being vegan is not about being “pure.” Rather, it is about doing what we can—within reason—to remove our support for animal abuse.



Q. Didn’t God give humans dominion over other animals?
A. It’s hard to imagine the divinity of any religion condoning the misery we cause animals. We deny the animals we raise for food everything that is natural to them. Most have little freedom of movement and are confined in spaces so small they can’t even turn around, let alone access sunlight and fresh air, or socialize normally. They are tormented in ways that would horrify any humane person, and almost always for purposes that are unnecessary. Most religious and spiritual people agree animal cruelty is immoral. If we agree that God is against animal cruelty, then we should end our support of industries that mistreat animals for profit.

Food Tray

As for me, I'm a fan of eating well first, and a vegetarian second :) In most cases it's possible to do the former while being the latter.
...says Jason Truesdell on 05/21/07 at 11:31 PM


enjoy food too much to be a vegetarian, although I'm by nature more a lentils' n' rice sorta gal than a meat-eater. I just don't want to limit my options for ideology or politics. Kudos to Planck for calling it like she sees it.
...says Bad Home Cooking on 05/21/07 at 11:43 PM

well-planned diet is important for everyone. We all know people who refuse to eat vegetables or who seem to live on potato chips and coke. The question I take from this tragedy is, is our society doing enough to teach what a healthy diet is?